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well, so much for healthy. last week i decided i would start eating really healthy and very small portions. a friend of mine lost like 30 lbs in just a couple monthes by eating 3 small (i mean TINY) meals a day to keep her metabolism high. well, i thought i would give that a try. well, i had one packet of instant low sugar oatmeal for breakfast. but i was sooo hungry for lunch i ate a whole sandwich with fruit salad. i was starving and we had an extended lunch break so i ate another sandwich and pasta salad. STILL, was hungry so i ate mac and cheese with tuna. then some jumbalaya and finding myself hugging the porceline god , so disgusted that i would let myself fall off that easily. so, yet again, i was starving by dinner so i ordered pizzy, buffalo chicken, cinnamon stix, and chocalotte chip cookies from the pizza place. i was so mad cause i spent like $30. i was trying to save money! do any of you feel disgusted by b/ping. like , its not just from what you do to your body but like that money is going to waste cause you dont even digest the food you spend soooo much money on? that your really just spending all that money to get the taste in your mouth.i dont know......

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so last week i found out that a 2nd friend in 2 weeks has died. im feeling sooo depressed. ive actually been so ive felt to lazy to do anything. all i can think about are my friends ive lost. ive found myself b/ping only i dont 'FEEL' like going through the excitement and effort of purging it all back up. does anyone ever feel that way? has anyone in here lost a close friend or family member? if so, what make coping easier? what are some of the things that you do to get b/ping or hunger even, off your mind? thanx, for helping you guys, anything helps.

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So i was just wondering....... for the times that you actually PLAN a b/p, how long does the whole process for you actually take. from the time you start binging to the time you start purging?? like for me, i hurry up and half chew my food before i go throw up, because im scared my body will start absorbing the fat and calories. does anyone actually take longer, like an hour or whatever?? does anyone actually loose weight with it?  because if i dont literally throw everything that ive eaten for that day, i dont loose much weight. just curious........

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so, like i stated before, im in the army. and yesterday i was talking to one of my head sergeants and i was telling him how i wanted to loose weight. he told me about this weight loss center that gives you a supply of needles, and supplements. the pills you take twice a day that supresses your hunger and the injections are like every week i think and they increase your metabolism. has anyone ever tried this, or knows someone who has?? he said a couple people he knows did it and they lost like 25 pounds in one month! it cost like 75 dollars the first month but he doesnt know then after. 
on another note, i found out today that another friend (thats the 2nd one in 2 weeks) has died. this one was a casualty of a roadside bomb in iraq. i know its off subject but i felt sooo bad that i went to the chow how, loaded up my plate with a double cheeseburger, fries, and hot wings and came back to the barracks to b/p. i feel an emotional wreck, my unit deploys in dec. will i make it out alive??

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hey everybody,  i am new to this site. (hince, why i dont have a pic yet) well, to tell a little about me and where i come from, here we go.....
ok, so, im in the army, and, well, ive always struggled with my weight. before i joined, i lost a whole bunch of weight in a short period of time.well, ive done every kind of diet and took every diet pill. not to mention i was literally hooked on prescription pain killers for a year (which to this day, i still believe is the reason behind my weightloss) but anyways, when i joined the army about a year ago, i quit b/ping. you know, its not the easiest to hide while living with up to 60 females! but lucky me, eating 3 full meals a day in a training, which including school, was about 15 monthes, i have gained 20-30 pounds. now, everyone keeps telling me i need to loose weight. not to mention how embarrassing, but now i cant remember how i can loose weight sensibly. so i have turned back to b/ping sooo hardcore now. ive been really restricting myself now for 4 days but with doing pt every morning with my company and going to the hot shooting range, i couldnt take it anymore, so i decided to eat a huge fast food lunch and go back to the barracks and throw it all up. well, just as i was about to finish stuffing my face, i heard my neighbor, with whom i share a bathroom (you can hear everything) come home. she's never comes home! i panicked. i didnt want her to hear me hugging the toilet. so i came back into my room, threw a trash bag in the sink, and purged away. i really hate to start this back up but ive got to loose weight and fast!

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